Reiki Challenge, Day 2 - Let Go of Worry

My principle for today was, "Just for today, I will let go of worry."

What a loaded principle this is for me!

I am a worrier by nature. I can't help it. I tend to overanalyze things and think way too much about what could go wrong, sometimes when there is no foreseeable chink in my plans. This has been a constant struggle for me, especially when I'm at school, even though my mother would always tell me, "Worrying won't make it any better, do what you can."

So my messages while meditating and thinking about this principle were to stop worrying so much (duh) and to let the Universe take care of things. This relates perfectly to the Aine card that I pulled from the Goddess Guidance deck earlier today. I need to take that leap of faith and trust that things will work out.

Another message that I got was that I have people - "Heavenly" or celestial and earthly - that are looking out for me and trying to assuage my worries and fears. Of course, sometimes I don't hear or don't listen to what they have to say, but they are there, and they are looking out for my best interests.

I found a lot of good "worry" quotes that I would like to have written down somewhere, so that I can refer to them when necessary. I guess this is as good a place as any, since I live online, anyway.

“Worry is like a rocking chair--it gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere.” - Anonymous

“Worry often gives a small thing a big shadow.” - Proverb

“Worry is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind. If encouraged, it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained.” - Arthur Somers Roche

“Worry is spiritual short sight. Its cure is intelligent faith." - Paul Brunton

“If we spend our time with regrets over yesterday, and worries over what might happen tomorrow, we have no today in which to live.” - Anonymous

Today's Guide - Judgment (Higher Self)

Precision * Rationality * Analysis * Discernment

From Sonia Choquette's "Ask Your Guides" Oracle deck, this card seems to be contradictory to the message I received from Doreen Virtue's "Goddess Guidance" Oracle deck in my previous post. This card tells me to turn to my Higher Self and use my power of reason, as opposed to letting my emotions run away from me. So which card do I listen to?

Well, I guess I can listen to both, but I have to compromise. Yes, I need to take that leap of faith, but maybe I should think logically about it first. Does that work? Obviously, taking a leap of faith means to just trust that whatever's going to happen will be for my benefit, but logic sometimes gets in the way. Listening to both messages would require me to use logic for some issues and intuition for others. I've found that it's very hard to apply both to the same situation.

It's a little past 12:30, and I already have a lot to think about for the rest of the day, and I haven't even done my principle for the Challenge yet. I can already tell that this is going to be a day for me to really sit down and reassess myself.

Today's Goddess Guidance - Aine (Leap of Faith)

"Take a risk, and put your heart's true desire into action!"

This is the message of Aine, a Celtic goddess of healing, fertility, protection, and prosperity.

Why does this message matter for me?

I have so many goals, so many dreams, and yet I tend to abandon them because I think they are impossible to achieve. I guess I either underestimate my ability, or I just don't believe that it is meant to happen for me. And I know I need to stop thinking that way. Considering that my principle for today is, "Let go of worry," I know that the Universe is definitely trying to tell me something. As Aine's message says, it is time for me to take a risk, and have faith that the Universe will take care of the rest.

Of course, this is all easier said than done. I have been getting in my own way for too long, and it's time to stop. I need to take that leap of faith, and trust that everything else will fall into place.